"I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh, what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what is around you"
I remember October 2011 like it was forever ago. I struggled with feeling as if I would never find a suitable man. Sick of being used, abused, unappreciated, and unloved...I gave up. I opted to look away from boys and pursue my single life. I felt as if my list of "must haves" were impossible: that I would never find anyone who met each of my desirable traits. I had surely never met anyone who even came close. Dealing with that and the break away from a drawn-out broken relationship, I decided that I would close my eyes to any options and focus on school and work.
And then out of no where, as if to push back on my new determination, there was you.
Determined to prove my independence, I wouldn't give you the time of day. I have no idea what kept you coming back, what made you want to continue pursuing me. But I am so grateful for whatever it was. Your timing could not have been worse but at the same time it was perfect. I was so strong willed. But you would reach out to me on days when I felt so alone and was hurting deeply. I was so determined to do things on my own. But you persistently attempted to convince me that it wasn't in my best interest. I don't know what kept your interest during my countless rejections. But I am so grateful. I can only believe that God placed a desire in you to know me and that it somehow kept you coming back.
